Rocky Part 2

So for the last two months, God has been working on in my heart, and I have been questioning why I do and act certain ways. One of the things He has pointed out to me was the need to be more self-aware. You talk about a knockout punch….that means I will have to list all the things I struggle with, write them down on paper….and face them!! Face a life time of doing things a certain way, let God deal and heal those things….then changing??

And to top it off, one of the messages that I was preparing for the students had to deal with being self-aware. So I was surrounded by it. I felt like I was going to be smothered…..like the air was just escaping from my lungs. I was like anything but this God!! But it was necessary. I could hear Him saying, Grant you have come a long way, but you can’t stay where you are….you have to move!! You have to continue to grow and learn.

So I began to prepare for this message, and I re-visited the book, Practicing Greatness, by Reggie Mc Neal. As I read the pages on the chapter titled “being self-aware”, I could feel God saying, let me heal you of some things. He then began to point out things in my life, through reading Practicing Greatness, which needed to be addressed.

Ever had anyone poke a muscle that was sore? That’s what it felt like when God was pointing these “character flaws” out in my life.  

Needless to say, when I finally let God “weed the garden” so to speak, I began to feel some hurts begin to heal. The issues I have with commitments and me taking them personal were being healed. Now just like it takes a broken bone a few months to heal, I am still allowing God to heal these areas of my life.

As God continues to show me the “weeds” that need to be pulled in my life, the more I figure out I need to rely on Him for strength, comfort, and wisdom. Just like when Paully tells Rocky to get rid of all the “stuff in the basement”, God is telling me to let Him clean out the basement of my heart, to allow Him to get rid of the excess baggage, hurt, and pain.

So I live my life out as a passionate follower of Jesus, not knowing all the answers, totally relying on Him to sustain me. Reminding myself every day that the Jesus I passionately follow should not be compartmentalized in one area of my life, but rather should rule and reign in EVERY aspect of my life.

That my friends is me making a conscious decision of getting off of the bench, and getting involved in the game……being active in the story that God is writing with me!!