It is so hard for me to get out of bed sometimes.
Especially when it is cold outside and my bed is warm and
comfortable.
On Monday mornings…I long to be able to sleep late again!
On the weekends, when I am trying to sleep in, the kids come
barging in yelling for me to get out of bed. They want to play, they want to do
something, they want some of daddy’s world famous eggs (okay, maybe not world
famous, but good).
There is this connection to me and my bed and most of the
time I don’t want to break that connection.
Let me change gears…
This past Sunday we were visiting a friend’s church and he
told us about a conversation he had with his worship pastor one day when the ministry
was rough and overwhelming. He was describing his pain and feelings of failing
as a leader. The worship pastor then told him…
Get out of bed!
I know that was a word for him during the rough times of
ministry, but I also feel like it was a word for me as my friend spoke them
during church this Sunday.
I also have labeled myself a failed leader, and as much as I
would like to say that I am healed, I would be lying to myself, friends, and
family if I walked around saying that I was healed from my pain.
I would be lying if I said I didn’t feel like a failed
leader. It’s something I have been struggling with for 11 months!
But as I am learning to let God heal my heart…I can hear a
faint and gentle whisper saying “get out of bed”.
What do I mean by that?
For the last 11 months, every morning my body gets out of
bed, but emotionally, spiritually, and sometimes mentally…I stay in bed.
I go through all the motions of the day, the weeks, the
months…
But I don’t get out of bed.
Yeah, I’m in conversation with people,
Yeah, I’m working,
Yeah, I’m doing stuff…
But a part of me is still lying in bed!
This week my goal was to get out of bed…all of me! The me
that God created! The me that is engaged with God as I live my life minute by
minute and hour by hour.
I wish I can say that I have been successful every day, but I
am now aware, I am now intentional about making sure that I am present…in the
present.
Because the past is a memory, the future isn’t guaranteed…what
is guaranteed is God’s present, His presence for us here and now.
So, what part of you is staying in bed?
What part of you needs to get out of bed?
I pray that God meets you exactly where you are and His
grace and mercy envelops you and gives you the strength to get out of bed!!
Continue to pray for me, that I remain intentional about
being in God’s presence constantly, and move forward to whatever God has in
store for me and my family.
Shalom!
